The Magic of the Breakdown
There is a song that I was introduced to some time back by that had the words, "there is beauty in the breakdown", and this month I got to experience that all over again at a deeper level.
There is a lot of breaking down, breaking up, breaking through and breaking open experiences happening at a personal, global, cellular and quantum level. We are shifting, re-aligning, clearing and expanding at an extremely rapid pace, like never before. But just like the reconstruction of a new building, the one that was there first has to completely come down in order to level the field and start a new foundation. This is where part of the magic takes place, when you go deep into your shadows, deep into the depths of your beliefs, deep into the illusion of what you have perceived to be true and become aware of all that is still held inside so that you can break it down and break free from it. No, I am not going to sugar coat it at all, the break down can be tough, it can be painful, it will have you down on your knees, crying your eyes out, begging to be shown and finally screaming NO MORE, I am NOT this belief, I am NOT this person, I am done with this BS. And when you allow yourself to go through that break down, you will see magic on the other side.
Apart from separating from my twin, my whole world was turned upside down and inside out. My right eye had me physically blinded and in so much pain, all my fears had come to the surface, all my wounds of past relationships resurfaced, my separated aspects yelled and screamed saying they didn’t want to go back home, my business had to be put on hold and all my emotions bubbled up inside of me. I couldn’t hold on to them anymore, I was crying for every little thing and for what seemed no reason at all. Intense was an understatement. I was forced to close my eyes and literally be in the dark inside the RV for two weeks. I couldn’t distract myself with anything, I had no other choice but to go deeper and deeper and deeper inside, where I hadn’t gone before. I began to realize how important it was to shut absolutely everything off and just listen to your body, listen to your thoughts, listen to everything that is going on inside of you. I realized how much we allow the outside world and reality to distract the very thing that can set us truly fee. I realized that one of the things that we fear the most is to come face to face with our own inner war and inner battles. And most of all I realized that once we actually decide to go deep inside into our own battle ring the only other person we would find on the other side would be us, another version of us, our most separated, distorted, unconscious aspect. There is no monster, there is no evil giant, there is no villain, it’s only us. We might be dressed like one but in the end it is only a version of us whom we have actually feared all this time. A version of us that has been just as scared as us but has learned to masked itself by an unhealed emotion. A version of us that deep down doesn’t want to fight, or be locked inside. A version of us that actually yearns to be free, it yearns to fly and be reunited with who he/she actually is.
Once we decide to go into the depths of who we are everything starts to change. Everything starts to make sense, everything starts to shift and dissolve and we realize that we’ve always had the key to set this aspect free. We’ve always had it inside, we just had to be willing to go so deep inside so we can let love in and let love win. The battle dissolves, the war resolves and the ring evolves into the gates of your heart.
It’s the heroes journey, the journey that we must all make, alone. No one can set you free but you. You are the one with the golden key, you are the one with the magic inside that can turn everything into love, you are the one you’ve been waiting for all of your life.
Every time I break down, I see the beauty and the magic that appears on the other side. I see an aspect of myself unify and become whole again. Allow yourself to set yourself free. Allow yourself to go deeper inside. Yes there are many aspects and battle rings that we hold inside that we must enter but once you realize that it’s only you everything changes and you’re not that scared anymore.
Give yourself permission to go deeper and the more that you do the more magic that awaits you on the other side.
Allow the break down, the emotions, the tears, the range, the vulnerability that comes with this experience because that will make more space for more of your SOULight to come through. And the more Light you hold inside the greater your ability to hold love and peace and joy at all times.
Sending you much love as you go through your own inner journey inside!
Samantha SolBright Rodriguez
New Earth Ascension Guide and WayShower
Samantha is a New Earth Ascension Guide and WayShower here to assist and support humanity in their journey.